I signed on to the forum this morning to review a post I wrote last year. Things have changed since then, I am trying to get some clarity on my current situation with my 12 year old yellow lab. My old girl Daisy is getting to a point health wise where I am questioning whether I am keeping her alive for her or for me. I decided to do up a list of the "Good" and the "Bad" and tried to be as honest as I could with myself. Now when I look at my list, the Bad outweighs the Good by a mile, but I am still hesitant or finding excuses to put off what I think is inevitable. I guess I am looking for some advice from those who may be able to provide some much needed help in whether it is time to put Daisy to sleep. I am going to include my list to give you an idea of her life as it is today, at age 12. I apologize for the length of the list. Many items on the list (health-wise) have been going on for years and are not new. She has been completely blind since early December of last year. Health Problems: Blind/glaucoma (Azopt drops 3x/day) (Blind one eye April 2017, Blind other eye Dec 2017) Arthritic/Stiff/Hip dysplasia (glucosamine 1x day/Metacam1x day/Gabapentin2x day/Tramadol 2x day) (Hip dysplasia and arthritis in back/hip diagnosed around age 5) Stomach issues (Metoclopramide 1x day/Pepcid 2x day) (Her whole life) Allergy issues (Apoquel 1x day) (Her whole life) Low Thyroid – (Thyrotab 1x day) She is full of bumps and lumps on chest/torso/neck/around eyes– a large bump on leg keeps growing slowly. Have to put cream on it or it gets scabby/dry/bleeds The Good Still eats well and likes her food; drinks her water Still tries to come out to kitchen if she knows I have cheese or sandwich meat out Still wags her tail although not as much as she used to Still loves to greet people and happy to get attention from strangers Sometimes wants to go out/walk No bathroom issues/no accidents Takes her medications always without any trouble (doesn’t like eye drops but doesn’t fight) Still plays with her treat ball or most treat toys that have food in it – some not if too hard to get out food will leave The Bad Whines and cries sometimes/howling issue chronic for last two plus years – day and/nighttime howling wakes everyone up. Have not been able to establish why she does this. Sleeps a lot Sometimes doesn’t want to go out for walk Can’t walk nearly as well as a year ago, very slow and doddery; can only go very slowly for short walks now. Takes forever to “walk” her. Looked at a video of her taken one year ago shows how much speed and flexibility she has lost. Won’t play or doesn’t try to play with toys anymore – if I try to engage her with ball, it may last for only a few ball tosses back and forth then she stops. Used to love playing/carrying her stuffed animal toys – now she rarely bothers with them Doesn’t look at me anymore/acknowledge Bumps into things and hits her head all the time; hasn’t figured out how to get around house very well Always arthritic and stiff; holds up/takes weight off back leg when standing/back end not super strong anymore Not the same dog; personality is much quieter since going blind, I miss her old self Worried she is in some level of pain even though I she gets regular daily doses of pain meds I worry about her all the time Takes a lot of medications at different times during day – schedules need to work around this 3x a day eye drops hard to remember or make sure I am around to give them to her; scheduling Very costly drugs/insurance/high quality food expenses on monthly basis and has been this way for long time Have to take her outside every time to do her business Have to lead her down hallway in mornings or she won’t come out of her room We can’t go very far anymore or be away more than a few hours at a time We can’t leave her with anyone for more than a day (only my Mom & Dad can look after her)/no vacations) Weight of expense and weight of care starting to feel burdensome Hard to watch her bump around the house and run into things and not know where she is Worry that something awful will happen (she will fall/hurt herself/have heart attack etc. when she is on her own) or I’m there but not able to help/manage her myself, too heavy to lift Don’t think her life is much fun anymore That's my list. I feel like the answer is obvious. But my guilt at my leaning in the direction of putting her to sleep is massive. Curious to know how others made the decision. Thanks for any advice.