Hello, I literally feel like I am losing my sanity. My family and I got a new puppy on July 8th at the age of 8 weeks which makes him 14 weeks old. My kids really wanted a puppy and I felt like it would be a good time since they were out of school for the summer to help out with him and learn some responsibility. However ever since getting him, I have been living in straight-up fight or flight. I have been depressed and anxious ever since getting him. Some days are better than others but I cannot help to yearn for my pre-puppy days when I only had to deal with the chaos of regular life as a stay at home mom with 3 kids as well as working from home. I wake up every single morning in complete anxiety, my heart races as I go to do my morning routine (before the house wakes up, including the puppy) but I am in constant fear that the dog will bark and demand my attention at any moment. It is quite literally like impending doom. I have done my best to keep him on a scheduled bedtime at 10 with a potty break at midnight and then another at 6:30am and then finally out of his crate by 9am for food, potty etc. This dog has been testing these boundaries. He barks and yelps at like 8am when I NEED this hour to myself. I feel that he does this because he knows he gets fed and is trying to demand the time of his feedings but I feel like this is up to me to decide. The reason I feel like he does this because he is demanding to be fed is because when I take him outside in the morning he sits there and tries to come inside instead of using the bathroom (even though he KNOWS that's what he's out there for and believe me, he does know because he is smart enough to potty on command) I feel like he is manipulating me and it's very stressful. I am crate training so during the day he watches every move I make and proceeds to think that when I am getting up to do normal things that I should be giving him something? He gets plenty of exercise as he goes on very long nightly walks and has an opportunity for playtime in the middle of the day in his playpen outside BUT it's never enough. I feel like my whole entire world has been taken over by a dog and my once happy self is just a distant memory. I tell my husband almost weekly that I am ready to get rid of him but then my daughter begs me to keep him. I feel so guilty for wanting to get rid of him but at the same time, I feel like I am losing my freedom and sense of sanity by keeping him. I was MUCH HAPPIER without a dog and now I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. All I know for sure is that I cannot keep living this way and I am desperate for suggestions and help. I feel like this will never get better, that I will be handing over (what little bit of freedom I have) to the dog for life. Everyone keeps telling me to be patient and I am trying but I am having a very difficult time. I hardly ever reach out for help online because I have feared getting the 3rd degree from people because of how I feel about this whole situation. The last thing I need right now is to be shamed for feeling the way I do. Have you dealt with this before and if so what is something you have done to make it better? I meditate daily, go for walks, journal, take pauses to breathe but I still feel like this is never going to end and that I made a HUGE mistake. Thanks.