I am so glad to read that you have come to a decision that is best for you and your family - well done I really hold my hands up to you for being so honest about your feelings. So so pleased for you, it will be worth all the hard work in the long term honestly. I wouldn't be without my boy for anything now, yet at one point I was sat on a bench in the pouring rain, with bleeding hands and so many plasters on my arms from puppy teeth, crying my eyes out after a walk with my Bailey - and to comfort me he jumped into my lap and very generously shared a nice coating of fox poop into my hair - that was my lowest point when I really wondered what the heck I had done. As my OH said at the time "onwards and upwards" and it really has
