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  1. Beanwood

    Beanwood Moderator Forum Supporter

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    Oh, this is such a difficult time. Having a multi-dog household, I just can't imagine the dynamics if we lost one..but would struggle with finding another, yet I think it would feel like something is missing.
    I hope a little time eases the distress just a little...:hug::hug:
     
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  2. kateincornwall

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    I truly feel your pain dear Swampy , I still miss Sam terribly and its six months, so please be kind to yourself , allow this grieving time, for Rory too , something will happen to let you know what to do, it always does . Nelly grieved for about two months , and still favours one particular toy , the one Sam loved and carried around . Hugs for you xxx
     
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    I didn't really mean that :)
     
  4. SwampDonkey

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    I known you didn't that's just me telling myself off:)
     
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    Don't, like others have said, be good to yourself :)
     
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    Getting a grip is much easier said than done and it's very early days. Be gentle with yourself as well as with Rory. Thinking of you.:hug:
     
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    So hard. My experience of grief is that the awful gut wrenching pain never completely goes but in the end it only happens once in a while. I don't know if dogs feel like that too.
     
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    I do feel for you and the 'twitchy' feeling is horrid. My beloved Lab was put to sleep last September, I had moments of extreme grief but somehow I have become numb. I am now used to one dog, had had two or three dogs since 1984, in a way have lost confidence in having two. I still think the pain of losing a dog is worth the loving of it xxx
     
  9. SwampDonkey

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    They think a dog experiences grief in a similar way to a child under 4.
     
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    I can very much identify with not feeling secure without a dog - or in your case without two. Was Empress Moo your 'protector dog'? i don't mean aggressive, but the one you knew would keep watch and have your back. When I had two, there was always the one on alert and the other who could be found on the sofa with legs up in the air not having a care as he knew the other one was on duty. :)
     
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    Time is your friend but that doesn't help in the shorter term, I know. I couldn't believe how awful it was when we lost Benson, our first lab. I truly feel for you Swampy :(
     
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    She patrolled the garden was very alert and was always with me we went everywhere together. She was Doug's half sister so she was my last link to him. Last link to my home town.
    They were both the dogs who gave lots of love and supported me through some very dark days. It's the end of that part of my life. Rory is the new part which I never expected to have.
    She as always brave and tough and like Doug had a clear idea about what she though was right and proper. It didn't always tie in with my idea but that didn't matter to her. It was a deep understanding and love.when she went deaf and got frail she relied on me more and I realised how much she needed me emotionally as well as physically.
    embarrassingly when she was 14 deaf frail and wobbly she ran off up the street to pursue the hated dog from next door which was walking by with its owner she caught up with it and stared it down. She decided to show it who was boss. Tiny frail no teeth deaf poor eyesight she would still spit in the devil's eye. Although I was mortified for many reasons I still felt the power of her personality and determination.
     
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    I don't even know what to say...you've got me crying again. I know her body has passed, but the way you write about her and remember her...no one is going forget word one about that little dog, least of all you. Immortal Moo. :heart:
     
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    I don't want to upset anyone or make them feel sad but this was the power of her quiet, calm, amiable well mannered and kind but with a will of steel and a love of mischief. I think this is why she lived so long despite being ill. She was a stubborn .wilfully little beast who didn't ever want to give in.
    I just keep being reminded of the things she did and I laugh.
     
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    Sorry @SwampDonkey - your grief is very raw and painful. Moo sounds like she had a great life with you. I think that is one of the mist powerful things we can give our dogs so take comfort that you gave Moo that. She will never be forgotten :hug:.
     
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    No, I hope you didn't take my comment that way that you were upsetting me. It's hard to explain, I just find the way you write about your relationship with her to be very moving but oh so funny at the same time. She was a real character, that's for sure.

    I really love your stories about Moo and hope you will keep sharing them. :hug:
     
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    I watched her so many times make the choice between good and mischief and seen her almost grin and do what she wanted. Sometimes she would kind of shrug and go ok you win. I always remember that face and me feeling real amusement when she did it. I couldn't resist her.
     
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    4weeks in and things are getting into a new routine. It's very peaceful so quiet less silly. Rory is doing well but he does miss her, I think she made him feel safe she was always there she comforted him when he was a pup and made him more confident. He's less tired more relaxed and stopped looking for her. People still ask how she is and I have to tell them it always ends in laughter and do you remember moment, some stuff even I'd forgotten. I got 2 things from most people she was so funny and they don't know how I put up with her Moo Moo stuff.
    I'm getting used to coming into the house and her not being there it's hard but I'm getting there. Still not sure about another dog, Rory is plenty of dog for the moment I just see what happens.
    One friend who has terriers is convinced she was part patterdale that would explain a lot.
     
  20. Beanwood

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    Has it been a month already? I so admire your strength both in Moo's special life and after. Thinking of you as always. It's funny really, I often look at Casper and think of Moo. Something to do with their amazing personalities combined with manipulative ways maybe? :hug:
     
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